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看到去年震撼到自己的句子 恍如隔世 但如醒世恒言

“Happiness in the face of horrible is not the goal. Feeling the horrible stuff and knowing that you’re not gonna die from the feelings? That’s goal.”

THE QUESTION IS I AM NOT SURE IF I AM KNOWING THAT !!

城市在接受一个盛大节日洗礼过后的心境是复杂的 属于这座城市的他们宽慰缅怀之余 不免欢欣雀跃 属于外面世界的他们惊呼拍案 奔走相告 而只有处在边缘的临界空间不断游离的他们依旧波澜不惊 默默释放靡靡之音

每个人都精心演绎自己的故事 他们意图在生活该有的节奏里可以左右逢源 却不惜借时光来消磨 拿情感来挥霍 关于在并无把握的未来前面假想出更多的通天之路对他们来说从不算困难 世界在他们看来是那么缤纷琳琅 甚至可以侥幸地计算出柳暗花明的拐点跟方式 并乐此不疲地寻觅 义无反顾的抉择

可终究他们发现了自己因奢望而生的遗憾 因关注某个点上被放大的存在而偏执地舍弃柔软的情感 华丽的追求被停滞抽空深深地印刻在过去时间里 变成蓝调的音乐 乏味的字体 回忆就这样以空前绝后的方式让他们厌倦了世界潜在的无穷悖论 无法抵抗 无法救赎 抵抗大自然规律抵抗残酷的时间么 难以言表的感觉就如同有人对安妮的抽象一样 她的灵魂上路太早 以至于未达终点就疲倦了 然而你们的呢……

Sometimes you know exactly how and what you should or shouldn't do, but you only didn't follow the damn rules, all weird choices become the whole truth just because you are yourself lack of sth such as courage or resolution of redemptations. However the more worse is you gotta no ability to control the mind or how to say……u even prefer to blackmail it rather than to let it stay conscious all the way. But no matter what happens, i still remember someone said that Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can. 

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 每当感悟时光荏苒就常会勾起心底一丝清白的悲凉 然后放纵地陷入对过往青春难以言表的眷恋 然后今年夏天我会拿出杀手锏 翻出去年被我听得烂掉但也好久没敢听的曲子姬神的月砂 或者OST脚踏车 曲子本身富有强盛生命力 更何况无意中又将这旋律和脑细胞之间建立了一种高度的虚拟关联与其说是对某种听觉爱不释手的依赖 不如说是记忆链条的重现或潜意识的震撼冲击
 
最近的日子很奇怪 很多事情在思维和感觉上貌似有一些改变 但仔细想想都觉得好笑 事实上这种改变是内心杜撰出来几乎称不上为憧憬的东西 还是尽早清醒的好……

24小时不太好看 但是继续看他是一种强迫症 基于对电脑负担释放的快感

在我个人理想的状态里 再忙碌 工作和生活 就像一个衔接无痕的圆环 各是其中半圆 或是各自决定比例 而不是工作像一块漫漶的水病 最终把整个生活泡的汗水淋漓

2007.03.25

“we all have our reasons for rewriting history,but who could fulfil it at all.
sometime,we need to provide ourselves rescues;sometime. we wanna hurt someone who was hurt us.And also we just wanna spare ourselves in the dark basement.of course  there are some who filled our innermost beings with fabulous hope”

but what is history anyway?
how is that icy trail really got vanished?
from ur clear eyes,we all wish a starry sky to share with,holding the sunshine in hands  we are looking forward to the future far distant.

Today is dazzling~
when the sunshine captures the whole sky  i abhor it , cause the smell of the warm current made me depressed unconsciously.when u stare at an abyss so long mins  the abyss looks into u inversely.

in fact i always asking for even more forgiveness after making the mistakes.in order to make myself feeling at ease. actually it deceived myself as well as some others. but the truth is  not all confessions are worthy of such forgiveness, for people doing what they have to feel safe.

still i know it should be grateful for whatever changes life throws at us.
because all the soon the day will come  when there r no changes left
ordinary days filled with ordinary moments  
each made u be insured to carry on ur life.